Chapter Six: Darkness (Saturday, October 1st, 1994)
It’s been two weeks since I first teleported. I haven’t done it since and I guess that’s because I am too scared to try it again. I hate being sick and the last time I threw up I was around twelve years old and two weeks ago was the closest I’ve been to doing so since that time. It’s not even being sick that bothers me the most, it’s the darkness. For less than a second I see and feel nothing but empty nothingness and darkness. It’s hard to describe how someone can feel darkness, but I can and it terrifies me. I don’t know what it is and I don’t know what will happen if I get trapped there.
Thankfully I haven’t heard the voice in my head since but even that bothers me. If I teleport again, will I hear it? Will it give me the answers that I’m looking for? Most importantly, who is it?
So far Celestria hasn’t found anything about teleportation in the library but she’s determined to find something, anything that can help. I know that I can’t wait on her finding something and that I need to get used to teleportation on my own.
I need to find out what this darkness is. I just can’t ignore the fact that I can teleport and personally, it should be much better than flying once I get it down. If I can do this right, imagine how fast I can move against my attackers.
Of course I need attackers and enemies to be able to really try it out. So far it’s been quiet, which I guess it’s a good thing. The waiting is the hardest part because we know Ozma is planning something. There’s no way that she’s going to just let me go.
I close my eyes. It’s not like I can teleport to a random place on Earth, right? What would happen if someone was there? Seeing someone appearing out of thin air would give any normal person a heart attack for sure. I would need to do this either on Crystaltina or a place on Earth where no one would be at.
My mind then starts to day dream and I begin to picture a small deserted island somewhere in the Indian Ocean. Hopefully no one is there when I arrive.
I slowly open my eyes to find myself on a small island no larger than one or two miles. My heart skips a beat and I smile to myself. This is both exciting and dangerous and I like it. The ocean breeze feels fantastic as it blows my brown hair around.
However if I’m going to try to teleport and face this darkness, I need to keep my eyes open. When I close my eyes, I don’t feel it as if they are open. It’s like I have to look into the darkness to be able to feel it. I fight back the feeling of being sick and force my eyes to stay open. I picture the lake on Crystaltina as my stomach turns and then suddenly I am falling from the sky towards the lake, I then teleport again, this time to the edge of the lake. I have zero urge to fall into that lake again.
I can teleport anywhere, at least I think I can but I need to know where I am going or who I am looking for. In that case, do I need to know where the person is in order to teleport to them?
Each time that I do teleport with my eyes open I can feel that darkness and at times it feels like someone is watching me. I get this deep feeling of dread and sadness in my chest and as soon as I appear, those feelings start to vanish but then I start to worry.
For now, I shouldn’t tell anyone that I am working on my teleportation. Maybe Celestria will find something that can help me better understand this.
I shrug away my thoughts and decide to break out into a run within the forest and every several feet. I teleport myself a few feet ahead of where I just was, teleporting in and out, trying to make myself move faster as I do so, despite feeling sick.
Getting a head of myself I suddenly slam my face into a tree, knocking myself to the ground. The blow creates a headache as my stomach insists on returning my breakfast.
Giving up on my morning exercise session for today, I teleport to my room within the catacombs. I grip the wall to hold myself up as I try to find Celestria.
It takes me awhile to find her and I swear we need a pager system to make finding each other easier. I know I can just teleport to her if I have an idea of where she is but I don’t want Celestria to know that I’m teleporting.
I find Celestria walking into the catacombs from the outside.
“What happened to you?” she cries out.
My nose is bleeding now and I look like a complete mess.
“I fell of out a tree,” I lie.
“I swear, between Tom fracturing his thumb, Kyle breaking his fingers and you falling out of a tree….” Celestria continues to complain as she walks down the hall and to her room.
“Ummm, heal?” I stand there puzzled.
Celestria walks into her room, still talking a loud.
I cover my mouth as I can feel my food from the morning coming up.
Celestria returns with a backpack and tosses it to me. I almost drop the thing. It’s a small pack, brown and worn.
“It’s waterproof and durable. Keep this on you when you feel like climbing a tree. Inside are several potions that will heal you when I’m not around.” She then waves her hand and I begin to feel better. “I thought you’re good at climbing trees?”
“Yea, well,” I swing the pack onto my shoulder, trying to think of something. “The tree was wet and my foot slipped.”
I do plan on telling everyone about practicing to teleport, but I’m just not ready right now.
“Oh and I found a book, an old one, on teleportation. It’s in the bag for you to read,” Celestria adds.
“Wait, really? Did you read any of it?”
“All of it. It’s not that long and I was able to finish it in a few short hours. Not many people were able to teleport back then and it’s a rare power to have. One has to tap into the Void to do it.”
“The Void?” I ask.
“It’s the darkness between one life and the next. Also known as Limbo but the people who wrote the book know it as the Void. Those few who could teleport didn’t use it often since the darkness causes terrible feelings to a person and in some cases causes them to act differently. I don’t know how you’re able to teleport…” Celestria trails off.
“What is it, I ask?”
“Nothing, just thinking….”
“You keep trailing off. You never trail off unless you’re upset or worried,” I point out.
“I just think it might have something to do with your past life or more importantly the entity that inhabited your past self. Someone that powerful might have been able to teleport and some of that power bled over to you,” she blurts out.
“Yea…hopefully that’s the only thing that carried over,” I say, worried.
I think Celestria is starting think the worse and I have to wonder about that voice that I heard two weeks ago. My stomach turns and I start to feel bad, real bad. Not as far as being sick but bad in an emotional way. Could this entity be alive within me after all? How can I fight something that’s inside of me? I then start to have a growing urge to tell someone thinking that might make everything better but in reality I know I’m fooling myself.
